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Letter to my future self it is the start of a new me

So after seeing someone post this on twitter and their blog I realised what a great idea it was.

I do often thinking about the negatives in life and don’t take time to really see what it going on around me or enjoy it.  I am always that busy and on the go that I have not accomplished anywhere near what I wanted to,

Life has certainly not planned out the way I wanted it to and I have just been going with it kind of floating on top of the river it taking me rather then me choosing where to go.

Here is my letter if you can not read it I apologise its been years since I have hand written!

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As this is my first time I won’t have done great I am however happy with it.

Just writing it made me realise a lot of stuff, I do feel lost and unsettled I have never really felt settled and at home since a very young age 7/8 years old This is something I struggle with.  I feel like I have lost control of everything in my life at the minute like I have been floating on top of water letting it take me any direction rather then me choosing the path to take I do not any longer feel like I have time to myself or time to enjoy family life.

There is a lot I would like to do and accomplish but I am starting small.  I would love to be able to take time out for myself I mean myself not every 5 minutes checking on kids or work.  And I want to be able to spend more time with the kids and watch them grow.  My main mission is to get time alone with my partner maybe a night or a weekend we have not had this in over 4 years! Something I miss.  I would love to be able to start writing more on the blog I enjoy doing it but often don’t find time and it does not get visited in weeks.

My biggest hurdle will be letting go of the past it often comes back up and reminds me of things which makes me down and that is when I close off and just go with it rather then choosing my path.  I know it will be hard to stop thinking about the past but if I can not then I need to find a way to deal with it maybe writing a blog?  Not 100% sure yet though.

Most important is remembering that kiss every bedtime saying goodnight to all my kids I would hate them to fall asleep without me giving them a kiss goodnight.

So I am intrigued to see what has changed in 2/3 months from now.  Why not write a letter to your future self?

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